Fun fact about me: I have 1 tattoo. I never really thought I’d get one but I did … so, here’s a little more on it.
Since I can remember, I was dumbfounded by nature. I believed God created this beautiful world but I couldn’t fully comprehend how I fit in it. Growing up, I had a desire to do my best; however, I felt like I fell short every time. I think the continual pursuit of perfection ended up causing a few insecurities and doubts over time. More so, the turmoil of never fully understanding why I felt the need to live with such high standards was exhausting. Was I chasing these goals for me? Did it make me feel valuable or important? Was I looking to gain acceptance from others? Was it what I thought God wanted or expected of me?
I started a habit of drawing a star on my left hand with a permanent marker before activities that made me feel timid, anxious, or insecure. Such as soccer games, cross country races, tests, presenting in front of classmates, etc. The habit was created after reading the following Bible verses:
Psalm 8:3-5 When I look at the night sky and see the work of your fingers— the moon and the stars you set in place— what are mere mortals that you should think about them, human beings that you should care for them? Yet you made them only a little lower than God and crowned them with glory and honor.
Psalm 147:3-5 He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds. He counts the stars and calls them all by name. How great is our Lord! His power is absolute! His understanding is beyond comprehension!
I started to believe I mattered – whether I did things well, perfect, or not. He numbers the stars, he calls each one by name – he is aware of everything he has created and that includes me. Drawing that star on my hand was a constant reminder that no matter what the outcome of the situation I was facing, He was watching over me and cheering me on. I decided to make the star a little more permanent when I turned 18. Again, I never thought I’d get a tattoo but I’ve really come to love this little ink.